Rest In Peace my dear nephew, Travis Markus

you pass by as we move on,

as years goes by and the clock ticking like a time boom.such annoying sound that is made.lost in the depression of time.

i love you even thought i am not sure of what i am feeling now.but the pain inside after hearing the news that your time have stop.feeling numb.

not that i do not want you to go, it will be against his will.accepting the fact that you are no longer in the face of the earth but you will always be remember.i feel your pain leaving everyone you love.

leaving behind all your aims, love, hobbies....how you do not want to leave them but you have to.sometimes there is no choice for you and me and just go blindly not realizing where.

you have done a great job, you are brave in your heart to face your trouble, you are smart in many kind of ways, your smile makes everything bright, your tears clear up the sky....you are perfect in your own way.

May your Soul Rest In Peace my dear nephew, Travis Markus.love you

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don`t let them say you ain`t beautiful

"Beautiful"

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit Or come to grips, with the fact that I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet I know some shits so hard to swallow And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow Copy One tough act to follow Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see What it's like, to be me I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to Feel your pain, you feel mine Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you sOoOoo Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
OoOo They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that... I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom I don't need fucking man servant
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like
Ahh Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
OoOo They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
OoOo They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands they've delt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait but I know to unpack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tongue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't tryin to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
Cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where? I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

[Chorus]
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to

Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
OoOo They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
OoOo They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world Where they can be alone... sOoOoo
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through OoOo
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you
sOoOoo Oo Oo

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong.
Daddy will be home soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

by, Eminem

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let`s chill for a moment

at the top of the world everyone seems to be waiting and watching for something they want.trying to hear the voice they wanted to hear so much but instead choking yourself at the bottom of your heart.without it all its better to not knowing anything at all.ignorance is bliss cherish.

it is clear in our head that it was a waste of time when your are on your own? asleep, can you still feel him dying in your dream.pretending that `i am ok`.how deep is your wound when you cannot achieve what you want.is that all we got?was it too deep that it did not even made you scream?unwind the time.

hold it tight and tried not to cry.see the changes people faces blur out and you will be lost in time.make a day that will be in the mind in a short term.ever feel that feelings means nothing?move to the back of the mind and still theirs nothing there, for you have wasted your day for a stray.take a deep breath to face today.it was just yesterday feelings.

November was not ok.so what if it was not ok?December will make you feel alive.when your are not ok, someone will make you believe where you are suppose to be.stand on a bridge.stand under a tree.this holiday will be just you and me and us.you are not alone.

but it seems like speaking gets harder.

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when the time bite the air is a prayer

as days goes by, some may say goodbye.
watching the world got polluted is like watching you creating another crime for a dime.
i`m standing there watching the air cry for an air.
you betray me as i betray you.
do you care?if you did, should i be scared?

we pray for peace,
but not the easy peace,
built on complacency
and
not the truth of God.

i don`t want a plain box,
i want a sarcophagus,
i don`t want a rose,
i want a picture.

why would anyone want more
while the world is dying?
making a different in you
and
make sure it`s for the good
and you will have something in return?

expect nothing more for it is already return
a dead line is a line that should be cross
so that you will be cross?

despite others that step on your grass
but don`t ever spit
for, anything can change in a second
shake hands and bow. great show.

black against twisted black,
creating another you for you,
among the colour your the strongest,
does it counts as bright?

being so high tech will break down your emotion

talk

talk

talk

talk

and the clock strike at 5.55

in the motion of time you will miss the old time
greattimeguys

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escape artists never die

We'll start a fire
And burn some bridges
And make it out of here tonight

We need some leverage
We can't seem to open up
The locks are far too tight
And the chains are far too strong
Far too strong

Up to my eyes
When I'm seeing without you,
Up to my heart
When I'm bleeding without you,

We'll start a fire
And burn some bridges
And make it out of here tonight

Please someone help me
I'm dying here in front of you
With a hundred thousand lights

Timing as everything will
With a hundred thousand lights
Timing, timing is everything to me

It's everything, it's everything
Timing is everything, it's everything

BY,
FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND :D

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its ok, its normal

`i cant explain what u can explain,
becoming plain n turn to pain,
n now u explain to end`

`u left to right,
u think its right, but, u got strike`

`miles from me n u r not mine,
making a sign n u sigh,
u regret to act as if u meant it`

`i fall n u crawl,

i bake n u hesitate,
i care n u fake,
i act n u leave`

`twisted in mind n got blind,
twisted your leg n u can still stand,
broke your heart n that is just a memories`

`taking another step like u dont even realize
the sound is getting near`

just looking around
. . . .

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half of me. half of you

i got a feeling...
things seems to be different now.
everyone is like having their own things to do.its ok.its normal
sometimes things doesnt turn out the way we want.
why? how will it get better? please....
having the feeling something disturbing doesnt make me feel easy
do anyone want the feeling of awkwardness?
or
want to have a happy atmosphere where u can laugh n smile with everyone?
haiz~ i dont want this, one person will affect others
take time. a friend once told me ` dont give up n move on `
it lead me to brighter path

problem seems to be the things make us stop
how to make things well again?
be a to turtle n hide?
another friend of mine said that :
` look at the mirror n make a better change`
dont run cause it will be tiring

this shows that a friend is always there to help
n
guide to the right path if ur feeling lost


another half of me n u to help each other ^^

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